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heatmetal

[ his voicemail greeting is just a guitar riff ]

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From:

heatmetal

Guilty. He immediately texted me like a schoolgirl who'd just been noticed by their crush.

[ he rolls over, tucking himself to Steve's side. ]

Buuuuut... I want to hear it from you. And talk it out, so I know exactly where your head is at. [ he walks his fingers along Steve's chest, punctuating head with carding his fingers through his lovely touseled hair. ]

From:

retromix

[ His arm comes around Eddie's shoulders, playing with his long hair. ]

There's not much to say. Since you're okay with me flirting with another guy I told him the truth about him being the first man I've been attracted to, outside my relationship with you. If you're okay with me exploring what that means, I'm okay with it. I would never have done anything without you asking me that stuff over lunch.

[ His chin digs in gently at Eddie's crown, rubbing back and forth. ]

I don't want this to turn into cheating on you.

From:

heatmetal

I'm not worried about you wandering anywhere I'm not okay with you going.

[ he lets his eyes shut, contented. Let's his hand fall to Steve's shoulder, pulling him close. ]

And I trust B to respect both our friendship and your boundaries... Which speaking of... I wanna be sure I'm not stepping on your feelings, even by accident. So... Any concerns or boundaries you wanna set?

From:

retromix

[ He does have one insecurity, one niggling fear. Turning his head to meet Eddie's eyes, Steve drums up the courage to make his request. ]

I don't know how it works with you two in each others heads, but ... he mentioned something about feelings inviting you in?

[ Steve bites his lip for a moment, worrying. ]

I've only had girlfriends, you're my first boyfriend. I'm not great at everything but I trust you a lot, it goes without saying.

Don't like, share commentary on me about private stuff. Not in detail. If I wanted everyone to see me they'd be in the room. Okay?

From:

heatmetal

It's hard to explain. But from the jump, we agreed sex is private.

[ pressing a kiss to his shoulder. ]

He can see through my eyes if he tries hard enough. Sometimes I think we share dreams, and we can send memories, getting pretty good at telepathy, but mostly it's sensing feelings.

[ another shoulder kiss. ]

You are great in bed though, baby.

From:

retromix

My ego's not flagging too much yet but it's nice to hear it.

[ He goes quiet then, nodding to the sex is private comment. Then he looks down, tentatively adding, ]

Do you remember what I told you earlier? About tonight and wanting it to be just us ... ?

From:

heatmetal

Yeah.

[ and he'll go ahead and do what he can to shut off the connection. ]

It's just us in here. Always.

From:

retromix

[ He tries to keep the underlying stress out of his voice, laughing weakly at himself. ]

Yeah, I really need that tonight.

[ As much as he's interested in exploring new avenues, he needs Eddie to be his port of call. Somewhere safe he can retreat to. ]

And if ... if me and Billy fight about dating stuff, which we probably will about something, can I still come to you? Or should I go to Robin?

From:

heatmetal

You can always talk to me. Always. And anything you tell me stays private unless you want me to intervene.

[ he gives a squeeze. ]

And so long as Buckley doesn't murder me in my sleep, I give my full consent to her knowing all the nitty gritty shit so you got plenty of people who love you and can not support you if you need it.

From:

retromix

Okay.

[ He relaxes, arms wrapping around his boyfriend as he twists his body to better hug him under the covers. Clinging, technically. Steve's love language is physical and he slides a hand along Eddie's cheek to brush a thumb back and forth there, wanting to be a safe refuge for him too. ]

You're incredible, you know that?

Edited Date: 2022-09-04 08:03 am (UTC)

From:

heatmetal

Sure do.

[ it's joking, of course. he doesn't think he's that great. but he's utterly relaxed, safe in steve's hold. ]

... You can thank my uncle. He showed me how to be patient when someone you love has never known what it is to be treated right.

From:

retromix

I ... know. I've been loved.

[ Hasn't he? He sounds unsure, eyeing the ceiling as he thinks about it. He's fairly sure being emotionally cheated on and dumped was the only time he was technically unloved. ]

From:

heatmetal

Not the way you deserve, big boy.

[ Eddie pulls back a little, looking up at him. his smile is soft, teasing, but there's sincerity to it. ]

Otherwise, you'd realize you're way out of my league.

From:

retromix

[ That makes him snort, petting through Eddie's hair with soft fondness in his eyes. ]

The league is a lie, okay? There is no league to be in or out of, not once you leave high school.

Edited Date: 2022-09-04 11:09 pm (UTC)

From:

heatmetal

Oh, no, the league is very real. Your friends just stop openly mocking you for it.

[ god those hands in his hair are just heaven. ]

You, my love, are a real life action hero. People adore you because somehow, despite all odds, you are simultaneously a hardcore badass and one of the most loving people I've ever met.

From:

retromix

Jeez ...

[ Steve doesn't have an appropriate response, flattered and flustered as he slides down the bed a little to bury his face in Eddie's neck, fingers in his boyfriend's hair and running over Eddie's hip. He tangles their legs together, seeking and moving, always brushing against him as he nuzzles that neck. ]

Can't believe you're mine.

From:

heatmetal

I genuinely cannot fathom why you're slumming it with me, but it must be proof that God loves me a little.

[ he pulls steve closer, playing with the ends of his hair. ]

From:

retromix

[ He melts into him a lot faster with his hair being played with, kissing up Eddie's neck. His heel runs up a calf, hooking them for the sake of it. ]

Don't call it that. I'm not, I ... Eds, [ his nose runs along a jaw, ] I love you. I'm lucky to be with you.

From:

heatmetal

Okay.

[ it's still hard to get his head around. he's the antithesis to everything steve is, but...

but he loves him. is grateful to have him. ]

I love you, Steve.

From:

retromix

No, like ...

[ He raises his head to flop back on the pillows, cupping Eddie's cheek as he stares up at him. Gazes is a better word. Steve's eyes are dark and dilated, huge with the sentiment banked behind his ribs that he can't vocalise. He does his best. ]

I love you. Like I'd do anything to keep you safe. Like you make me want to hit you and kiss you on a daily basis because you're driving me out of my mind, only when you're gone it's worse because then I really can't think about anything but how much I miss you. I'd burn the entire Upside-Down for you, if it would help even a little. Feels like you're not just in my bones but you made them.

I'm in love with you.

From:

heatmetal

[ he's speechless in the way he is whenever he's truly seen. those doe-brown eyes wide, a flush on his pale cheeks. ]

Steve... [ his brain stalls. can't think of a decent response. only able to lean in and kiss him, fingers curling ins his hair, trying to convey sentiment in a way he'll only be able to put to melody later.]

From:

retromix

[ The sentiment lands. Steve kisses him back with a smile in place, warm all through, giddy with happiness that makes him shortly make muffled humming noises of approval into their kisses and tickle his way up Eddie's side. He yanks the blankets over their head and playfully attacks his neck with raspberries, nipping in between. ]

From:

heatmetal

[ he laughs. warp and bright, fingers sliding through his hair, head tilted back so steve has full access. ]

From:

retromix

[ What follows is half-tussle, half-affection as Steve declares he's going to bite every inch of Eddie under the blanket, not letting him see where each nip is coming from. Dastardly! ]