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Jul. 27th, 2022 01:10 am
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[ his voicemail greeting is just a guitar riff ]

Date: 2022-08-30 02:04 am (UTC)
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[he's quiet again. feels like he's suspended, somewhere; floating, or falling. he looks at Eddie, really looks at him with those blue eyes, fucking wet again and it's like a dam breaks, inside of him. he doesn't know how to vocalise it; has never said i love you to a single person beyond his mother and meant it. isn't sure he knows how.

so he let's all go; opens up the months of longing, the wanting, the absolute ache of giving a shit, of falling for Steve Harrington and Eddie Munson, and pushes it towards Eddie. the fondness, the misery of it, the absolute secret, private delight of having them accept him. the fear of rejection; the fear that Steve doesn't even really like him, that he's been tolerated for Eddie's sake. that he's just been tolerated, period.

in the middle of it is love; the fear of losing them. of not fitting, of not being good enough. the hurt, finally, that Eddie would think he just wants to fuck them.]

Date: 2022-08-30 02:18 am (UTC)
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[His laugh is sudden, slightly weak, and takes him by surprise -] Fuck you for making me laugh when I'm having a meltdown, [he says, and squeezes Eddie's hand. he wants to kiss him; the possibility of it is just hanging there, in this fucking limbo, and -

and instead he pulls Eddie in for an embrace, presses his nose to his hair and squeezes. indulges. ]
If he says no, it's - it's fine. I'm a big boy. But promise me we'll be good.

Date: 2022-08-30 02:24 am (UTC)
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Someone's gotta shoulder the burden.

[he's so smitten. even if he weren't, the thought of losing Eddie is so frightening. he thinks, maybe, this is why he avoided making real connections after Cali: just because of how much it fucking hurt when he had to let go. ]

You think we can sleep now? Pocket the rest of this for a tomorrow conversation?

Date: 2022-08-30 02:29 am (UTC)
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Thank fucking Christ, [he says, because yeah. he is bone dead exhausted. a little weird about sleeping alone, but fuck it. what is another night? ]

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