[For someone that's always had their path defined for them, it's been hard trying to navigate making one for herself. Harder than she thought. To hear Eddie lay it out so simply feels like a weight's been taken off her shoulders, and she almost wants to cry.
Embarrassingly, she kind of does, but she's wearing a broad smile so it's the good kind of tears at least.]
Do you mean The Breakfast Club, Eddie?
[Her nose scrunches up as she laughs and says it, and before she has time to talk herself out of it, she's stepping in to tightly hug him.]
[ he wraps an arm around her, giving a tight squeeze. natural and easy as breathing. ]
Steve's the athlete. Buckley's the brain. You are obviously the Princess... and Billy, love him as I do, is absolutely the Basket Case. And yours truly is the criminal, bringing it allllll home and tellin' it just like it is.
[She seems much more at ease now, without the pressure that she put upon herself put on her shoulders. It's right then that there's a knock at the door, and Chrissy pulls away to go retrieve the pizza.
It's brought back and set on the counter, the box lightly shoved his way so he can dig in.]
What if I said I didn't want to be the princess anymore, though?
[She reaches over for a slice herself, and takes a small bite.]
But I know that if Jason shows up here one day, I don't want him to think he can still own me or anything. You know, because everyone expects the King of Hawkins High to have a princess or a queen. Whatever everyone liked to call me. I'm over it.
[She rolls her eyes, before taking a larger bite from her piece.]
Maybe you could take me to get a tattoo?
[Yes, that's asked with her mouth full of food. Someone's bad habits are rubbing off on her.]
[She wipes at her mouth with the back of her hand before grinning.]
I really want to get the scars from my surgeries covered up on my arms and my legs.
[And she knows he understands what the desire to try and cover scars with something prettier feels like. So she feels comfortable telling him about that insecurity.]
We could go tomorrow, if you're not busy. And you can tell me about every badass princess you know so I don't whine about the tattoo hurting.
[She holds up a hand before reaching into the pocket to pull out her phone. Instagram is pulled up and she scrolls for a minute before pulling up someone's profile that acts as a portfolio.]
I haven't decided on a design yet, but I think I might try this guy. He said he didn't mind trying to cover up scars when I reached out to him.
[The phone is handed over to him to look through the guy's work.]
Maybe I should try drawing something to bring to him.
[Chrissy pauses, glancing down at her lap for a second. Eddie doesn't need her to ask permission to ask him for something. Her hands press against her knees, fingers flexing.]
I'd really like it if you could help me design something, actually.
[Which they are, but the symbolism is a little too on the nose for her liking. She doesn't want to be pretty and delicate her entire life, even if those are two things that aren't awful to be. They're okay for her to identify with, but she wants there to be something more. Chrissy just has a hard time expressing that, being open with her wants and things she craves. She almost pulls back inside herself and shrugs instead of answering. But this is Eddie. He doesn't judge her. So she tries to vocalize what she's thinking.]
But they also can grow even in the harshest conditions, you know? And I thought that maybe a lot of flowers on my arms and legs would make the scars from my surgeries look a little nicer. Maybe people would realize I used to be pretty instead of just seeing a lot of scars.
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Date: 2022-09-05 06:51 am (UTC)Embarrassingly, she kind of does, but she's wearing a broad smile so it's the good kind of tears at least.]
Do you mean The Breakfast Club, Eddie?
[Her nose scrunches up as she laughs and says it, and before she has time to talk herself out of it, she's stepping in to tightly hug him.]
I love that movie.
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Date: 2022-09-05 06:56 am (UTC)[ he wraps an arm around her, giving a tight squeeze. natural and easy as breathing. ]
Steve's the athlete. Buckley's the brain. You are obviously the Princess... and Billy, love him as I do, is absolutely the Basket Case. And yours truly is the criminal, bringing it allllll home and tellin' it just like it is.
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Date: 2022-09-05 07:06 am (UTC)[She seems much more at ease now, without the pressure that she put upon herself put on her shoulders. It's right then that there's a knock at the door, and Chrissy pulls away to go retrieve the pizza.
It's brought back and set on the counter, the box lightly shoved his way so he can dig in.]
What if I said I didn't want to be the princess anymore, though?
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Date: 2022-09-05 07:07 am (UTC)[ he's reaching out for a pizza slice, grinning broadly. ]
What do you wanna be?
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Date: 2022-09-05 07:17 am (UTC)[She reaches over for a slice herself, and takes a small bite.]
But I know that if Jason shows up here one day, I don't want him to think he can still own me or anything. You know, because everyone expects the King of Hawkins High to have a princess or a queen. Whatever everyone liked to call me. I'm over it.
[She rolls her eyes, before taking a larger bite from her piece.]
Maybe you could take me to get a tattoo?
[Yes, that's asked with her mouth full of food. Someone's bad habits are rubbing off on her.]
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Date: 2022-09-05 07:23 am (UTC)That's because nobody knows what a badass a princess can be. They just think Disney, not the daughters of steel and sword.
[ he makes a mental note to find some fantasy books she can fall in love with. ]
But fucking yes I can. I need to get some coverups myself.
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Date: 2022-09-05 07:29 am (UTC)I really want to get the scars from my surgeries covered up on my arms and my legs.
[And she knows he understands what the desire to try and cover scars with something prettier feels like. So she feels comfortable telling him about that insecurity.]
We could go tomorrow, if you're not busy. And you can tell me about every badass princess you know so I don't whine about the tattoo hurting.
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Date: 2022-09-05 07:31 am (UTC)[ and the grin tells her he'll absolutely regale her with his favorite stories of warrior princesses. ]
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Date: 2022-09-05 07:45 am (UTC)I haven't decided on a design yet, but I think I might try this guy. He said he didn't mind trying to cover up scars when I reached out to him.
[The phone is handed over to him to look through the guy's work.]
Maybe I should try drawing something to bring to him.
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Date: 2022-09-06 07:24 pm (UTC)Always a good idea to give your artist an idea of what you want.
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Date: 2022-09-10 07:48 am (UTC)[Chrissy pauses, glancing down at her lap for a second. Eddie doesn't need her to ask permission to ask him for something. Her hands press against her knees, fingers flexing.]
I'd really like it if you could help me design something, actually.
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Date: 2022-09-10 07:51 am (UTC)[ he grins broadly. ]
You got your refs?
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Date: 2022-09-10 08:04 am (UTC)I was thinking something with flowers.
[She pulls up a few images to flip through and show him.]
But everything I've found so far doesn't feel right.
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Date: 2022-09-16 01:57 am (UTC)Okay, gotcha... So what is the feeling? What is it about them that doesn't sing to you?
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Date: 2022-09-22 03:41 am (UTC)[Which they are, but the symbolism is a little too on the nose for her liking. She doesn't want to be pretty and delicate her entire life, even if those are two things that aren't awful to be. They're okay for her to identify with, but she wants there to be something more. Chrissy just has a hard time expressing that, being open with her wants and things she craves. She almost pulls back inside herself and shrugs instead of answering. But this is Eddie. He doesn't judge her. So she tries to vocalize what she's thinking.]
But they also can grow even in the harshest conditions, you know? And I thought that maybe a lot of flowers on my arms and legs would make the scars from my surgeries look a little nicer. Maybe people would realize I used to be pretty instead of just seeing a lot of scars.